What was that? Something has guided me away what I was doing; I'd started watching a documentary about an American WW2 fighter aircraft (the Curtiss P-40) and I'm being told... write. OK then, I close YouTube and open Blogger. What will happen? I wait; the conduit is open.
{{ Nonsense. I'm tugged back. It doesn't work every time, but looking up, the desert sky says "yes". Yup. Nodding my head. Thirty-three palm trees, shimmering heat. Thin, wispy clouds, and a feeling of betrayal? A dog barks in the distance, I stand up and brush the sand off my trousers. Gripping the rail I climb back up into the hot cab. I don't really want to. But the exercise is over, time to move. Can't be any better though? Thirty-three palm trees – nah! Didn't count 'em. It's what they say. C'mon, move. Start the truck. A bottle of gin for the officers' mess? Procurement procedures? Forget about that. Use the money from the crap game. Who snitched on me? WHO? Pete?
Night falls as I reach my destination. I park the truck and head straight for the Schlitz neon. An ice-cold beer. TV. Some laughs with Jack Benny. Aw hell, I forgot about that gin. "Sir! A bottle of gin with my compliments!" About turn, quick march. Back to my next beer. Dollars. Yeah, dollars. Many of them. Parked. Parking. A parking lot. A vacant lot. Parking – two bucks a day. Fifty cars. I pay my man ten bucks a day to look after 'em, I pay City Hall fifty bucks a day for the lot, that's forty bucks profit. Two hundred a week, ten grand a year.
Another beer, bowl of salted peanuts some olives! Yeah ten grand a year. Jack Benny. Swell guy, huh? Always makes me laugh. Ten grand a year? Whaddya say? Keep City Hall sweet, that's all there is to it. Veteran of the Pacific War, Korean War – who's gonna say no? Invest the profits, build up a chain of parking lots right across the Midwest. A man can dream. Big dreams. Soon as I'm outta uniform.
Thirty-three palm trees. Why's that coming back to me? Anticipation; another mission looming. No, nothing dangerous this time. Ferry flight south as flight engineer. Senioritas. Americano. Few dollars go a long way. Should be good. Bottle green, bar-room lights through bottle green. ZTILHCS. Reminds me of a movie I once watched.
This time last year:
The ephemeral pleasures of materialism
This time two years ago:
W-wa Zachodnia modernisation – a long way to go
(Two years on: still a long way to go)
This time four years ago:
Back in Aviation Valley
This time five years ago:
My flight to Rzeszów – delayed
This time eight years ago:
English as she is used in Europe
This time nine years ago:
Where asphalt is needed – Nowy Podolszyn to Zgorzala
This time 14 years ago:
I cycle to work along the cyclepath along ul. Rosoła
This time 16 years ago:
First apple
My analysis is that what killed the story is the lack of beginning and end. Ever since the story’s basic structure: beginning, middle and end, started slipping, thus from the first 24hr rolling news to today’s constantly unspooling reel in our phones, we’ve found ourselves inside the story rather than standing outside and listening. This is both exhausting and depressing. In my view, this is possibly only the fourth and most joyless shift in our looking at ourselves as a species, the other three being the Copernican revolution, Darwin’s theory of origin and Freud’s psychoanalysis. Each has stripped the world of wonder in its own way. The story’s greatest grip on our imagination was probably in the pre-Copernican times. (There is a lengthy but convincing disquisition on the centrality of the story to our sense of self in Sapiens, by Y.N. Harari.) Separately, I can only quote or paraphrase from secondary sources as I haven’t read GK Chesterton myself: “We are perishing for want of wonder, not for want of wonders.”
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