Thursday, 7 August 2025

A walk in the sun

Nice start to the day, but clouds are forming, wind in the south-east; time for an early walk. Well, by early I mean setting off at soon after ten. Something tells me the walk will be a long one.

Below: house nestling in the forest, Grobice. Nice light, and I'm using a new pair of circular polarising filters on my standard zoom and long zoom lens.


Below: ulica Graniczna ('border street'), this being the border between the Grójec poviat on this side of the road and the Piaseczno poviat on the other. The road ahead leads to a tiny settlement called Zalesie, a dozen houses or so.


Below: crossroads. Left for Grobice, straight for Kozłów, left for Staniszewice, and behind me for Grabina and Adamów Rososki. Up ahead, asphalt has been laid on the road into Kozłów, though it does not continue through the entire settlement, fizzling out into a dirt track which disappears into the forest that lies beyond. Several new houses are being built in and around Kozłów.


Below: "Kozłów is literally a dump," I am thinking. On seeing this scene, I get a flashback; I'm getting a flashback to a flashback, in fact two flashbacks to a flashback. One was in South Wales, 1960, the other in the woods behind Ruislip Lido in the early 1960s. In both cases, there was a momentary flash of recognition of another time, another place, which felt like America. I felt it here today too. And again now as I look at it. The road? The sky? The vegetation? The wires in the sky? All clicks.


Below: wayside cross, Kozłów. Note the dates; 1917 and 2017. A reference to the apparitions in Fatima – or something more local?


Below: homeward bound, familiar paths. This is ul. Sosnowa ('pine street'), which leads back to Grobice. It may not look like much of a street, but it is one. In Grobice, I buy a bottle of Muszynianka mineral water. Half an hour later, I'm home, having walked 16,000 paces.


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Accounting for coincidence
[Henry Cow – Piekut]

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Działka food

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Proper summer in Warsaw

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Poland's trains failing in the heat

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"Learn from your mystics is my only advice"

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Out where the pines grow wild and tall

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Behold and See (part V) - short story

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Syrenki in Warsaw

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What's the Polish for 'impostor'?

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Running with the storm on the road to Mamrotowo

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St Pancras Station - new gateway to London

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Mountains or sea? North Wales has them both

Monday, 4 August 2025

Consciously, mindfully, averting misfortune

An early morning insight, between sleep and wakefulness: {{ We can preclude catastrophe; we merely need to consider the catastrophe and discount the possibility of it happening. That conscious act collapses the wave function* }} 

This is the notion of quantum luck. Misfortune often strikes unexpectedly. Rule it out by expecting it, by thinking about it, considering it... and at that moment the wave function collapses. [The many-worlds interpretation of quantum mechanics postulates a multiverse in which an infinite number of universes co-exist, each sparked by collapsing wave function. So there is a universe in which you leave home consciously considering the possibility of your house being burgled – and you return home to find that it has been burgled. But not in this universe.]

The obverse is quantum luck is indifference to fate, to random misfortune. The obverse to quantum luck is also complacency; the thinking-by-default that if I were lucky yesterday, I'll be lucky today and I'll be lucky tomorrow. No. You will only be lucky today and tomorrow if you are grateful that you were lucky yesterday. You have to consciously feel that gratitude for this to work. Being mindful, aware, grateful.

You live in a world shaped by priors, things that have already been established, over which you have no control. Accident of birth is the most significant prior. But a whole series of unfoldings is constantly unfolding, possibilities that turn into realities. Fate, random events... 

You are studying for an exam. By chance you come across a fascinating article that explains some question that has been bothering you for some time. You set out this thinking in your exam essay – and it lands you a higher score, which gets you into a better university, where you meet the love of your life... Or not. Once the possibility has crystallised into reality, it becomes a prior from which further events unfold. Good and bad. You can't change the past, but you can influence the future. By action, obviously. But also by conscious consideration. Guided by a desire for good, rather than by ego.

The doomsday scenarios that we guard against. A supervolcano eruption. An asteroid strike. A devastating pandemic. A coronal mass ejection of the sun that knocks out all electricity on earth. Somewhere, on our planet, someone is considering each of these possibilities, and is thus guarding us against them. Last week's 8.8-magnitude earthquake off the coast of Kamchatka was the sixth-most powerful ever recorded and yet the death toll was zero. Good preparation (mass evacuations following tsunami warnings? Mitigation through better civil engineering)? Or – as news came over the airwaves of earthquake, could it have been the conscious hopes of millions of people around the world?

Mystical Judaism has the ideal that there are 36 righteous people (the lamed vovniks) who between them sustain the world. Mindfully watching out for all us sinners. Are there just 36 of them? Did God make the world in six days? I feel that yes, there are conscious folk out there watching for us at macro level just as I am consciously aware of averting misfortune at the personal level. 

Religion is a story we tell ourselves. Science is a story we tell ourselves. Which do you believe? Or do we each weave our own narratives to explain reality? Can God be boiled down to a physical formula? Can science explain the soul?

* I asked Google Gemini to explain the collapse of the wave function in quantum mechanics in simple terms: "Imagine you have a spinning coin in the air. Before it lands, it's neither 'heads' nor 'tails'; it's in a fuzzy state of being both at once. This fuzzy state is like the 'wave function' in quantum mechanics. It contains all the possible outcomes, each with a certain probability. The 'collapse of the wave function' is what happens when you catch the coin and look at it. The act of observation forces the coin to 'decide' on a single outcome – it becomes either definitely heads or definitely tails. All the other possibilities vanish instantly. In quantum mechanics, this is a central idea: until we measure or observe a particle, it exists in a superposition of all its possible states. The moment we measure it, its wave function 'collapses', and it settles into just one of those states."

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Warsaw's progress to normality

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Summer winding down

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My Mazovian roots

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My father revisits his battleground

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Over the hill at Harrow

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Behold and See - the Miracle of Lublin - Pt 1.

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Quiet afternoon in the bazaar

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The politics of the symbol

Sunday, 3 August 2025

Qualia compilation 10: the Road to South Wales, 1960

Up in the hunter's pulpit in Adamów Rososki. Nice place on a summer Sunday afternoon; a wooden cabin on stilts overlooking fields and forest. Settle in, settle down, crack open the tinnie: Guinness Draught (with free kitten toy inside each tin). Out of the fridge and into a small cool-bag, the beer is suitably chilled. 

The field in front of me is green and yellow; goldenrod and tansy are coming into flower. As I sip the Guinness, I am cast back my first Guinnesses as a teenager. The Wye Valley, on the English side of the river. Yes, and the first Guinness I drank in Ireland in 1981. I remember the taste, the experience. Not Watney's Red Barrel or Skol lager but a far superior beverage. As the beer begins to have its effect, I allow myself to drift off into a reverie; I find myself savouring earlier memories – indeed, some of my earliest memories – from the journey from West London to South Wales when I was three...

A recurring memory (or set of memories) from childhood relates to when we lived, briefly, near Newport, South Wales. Much I recall of that happy time, but this specific set of memories relates to the journey there, by car, most probably in the spring of 1960. 

My father, a civil engineer, was posted to Newport, Monmouthshire, to supervise the construction of the foundations under what would become the Llanwern steelworks. This would have been late 1959, when I was two. From memory, my father went out first (photos of Christmas 1959 were from our West London home), my mother and me joined him later. I seem to recall making the journey several times. 

Many memories flooded back to me today as I sat there high up in the hunter's pulpit, sipping stout.

Our route took us west along the A40 (this was before the M4 and M40 were built). One memory was of leaving London, the A40 in Hillingdon as it crosses Long Lane. To the right there was a yard where construction equipment for hire was stored. Cranes, what have you. My father explained that his company hired pile-drivers and vertical drilling machines from here. The old road would wind through small towns and villages, the occasional wood, up and down hills – and traffic jams would be frequent. I remember that we were part of an enormous jam once – a bank holiday? As we stood there. stationary minute after minute in the heat, a car drove by the other way (traffic flowing freely). I remember it well; it was an estate car with wooden frame in the rear, not a Morris Minor but something older and bigger. Maybe a custom conversion, maybe even pre-war. Inside were several older children. They were laughing at us. My father, evidently cross at being stuck in the jam, said "huliganie" (hooligans). I had just learned the word 'cyganie' (gypsies, Romany), and associated the car-load of mocking children with gypsy-folk. 

As a child, I could distinguish cars, lorries and buses very well. The lorries I liked best were the ERFs and Fodens and the big Commers with their distinctive diesel growl, especially as the driver dropped a gear to labour up a steep hill. And the roadside food... Much as my mother distrusted the snack-bars, trailers parked up in lay-bys, there was often no alternative. I remember one such place; we stopped there more than once. The woman serving the hot dogs (with British bangers rather than frankfurters) would ask each customer in turn "With onions or without onions?" in a sing-song voice that my mother imitated as we drove on. Again, I remember the greasy smell of the onions and the fatty sausages with mustard served on a white bread roll.

 
And I remember the petrol stations along the way. National Benzole and Cleveland, brands long gone, sold from pumps standing outside tin shacks with corrugated roofs, My mother would tell me that well before I could read, I was able to identify all the petrol stations by their logos – Shell-Mex, BP, Esho (as I'd pronounce Esso), National (Benzole), Cleveland and BP.

In Herefordshire and Gloucestershire – orchards. It is the sight of the orchards around Chynów that snaps me back to those childhood memories. They also remind me that as a small child, even then, the sight of those orchards set off anomalous memories; a strong sense of familiarity, from where I knew not; I'd been here before but not here. Another time, another place.

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Procrastination, time and mindfulness

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Summer as it should be

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Measuring the unmeasurable

Thursday, 31 July 2025

Late-July photo round-up

July has proved to be a rather nondescript month weather-wise (except for the first week, which was fine). No meteorological records have fallen, which is probably a good thing; local farmers can't complain about drought or flooding. 

Below: a female red deer takes fright as I approach from the south and bounds off into an abandoned apple orchard. There's a significant population of deer in this area; I have a one-in-three chance of seeing one on an evening walk around here, so I have my camera and lens set to catch a photo opportunity. Looking at this deer in mid-air, I can note the commonality with the cat; same mammalian body plan, the main difference being between the head of a carnivore (eyes on the front of the head for hunting) and a herbivore with eyes on the side of its head to watch out for predators. Red deer lack a proper tail; evolution evidently has no need for one.

Below: end of July and there's more than half an hour's evening daylight less than on the longest day in late June. The sun sets just before half past eight, and yet the hottest days (and nights) of the year are still ahead. The northern hemisphere is still warming up.

Below: a lovely Nysa 522 van in Milicja livery, photo taken on the set of the TVP series Wojna zastępcza, ('Proxy War') being shot in Warsaw's Krakowskie Przedmieście. The series, to be aired later this year, is set during Poland's transition from communism to democracy.


Below: summertime, and the tourist trams are running in Warsaw. This is an ex-Poznań Konstal 102N, built in the late 1960s, making its way along ulica Prosta. More information here.


Below: back in the countryside. View of a farmhouse from within the forest, Gaj Żelechowski. 


Below: wild hop cones at the end of July. These will be ripe for picking in mid-to-late September, by which time the hottest of days will have passed... I pick the ripe cones and boil them to make a hop extract, which, when cooled and diluted with cold water make a excellent thirst-quenching alcohol-free beverage.


Two train pics. Below: southbound push-pull double-decker semi-fast Koleje Mazowieckie train being pushed to Skarżysko-Kamienna via Radom (engine at the rear). It has just left Chynów station and is approaching the level crossing near Widok.


And finally – the InterCity Witos express heading to Warsaw, having left Przemyśl on the Ukrainian border less than five hours earlier. The train is hauled by EPO8 007, built in January 1976 (it will be celebrating its 50th birthday in five months' time!). Quite rare to see these old locos hauling expresses on this line, EPO9s and EU44 Husarzs being more common.


This time two years ago:
Late-July photo round-up

This time four years ago:
Stewardship of the Land, Jakubowizna

This time five years ago:
The cost of Covid complacency

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This time seven years ago:
Ahead of the Big Day

This time nine years ago:
Once in a blue moon

This time 11 years ago:
A return to Snowdon - Wales' highest peak

This time 12 years ago:
On the eve of Warsaw's Veturillo revolution

This time 14 years ago:
Getting ready for the 'W'-hour flypast

This time 15 years ago:
A century of Polish scouting

Wednesday, 30 July 2025

Aesthetics of New Asphalt

There's something special about newly-laid asphalt. Aesthetically, it's blacker than it will ever be, quickly fading to grey. It brings a new quality to roads that were hitherto mere farm tracks; dusty in summer, muddy in autumn and spring. I wrote about the roadworks between Chynów and Piekut in June; less than two months later, the work's (almost*) done.

Below: the road about to enter the forest, looking east. Chynów in the foreground, Piekut beyond the treeline, Węszelówka over to the left.

Below: looking west at the level crossing; a Kraków-bound InterCity train is rushing through, next stop Warka.

New asphalt bring so many benefits to society; ones that the average car-driver, thinking only of themselves, can't imagine. Below: looking towards the end of the new stretch; the photo shows some of the beneficiaries of the new road surface. The farmer, tending his orchard, will have a smoother journey with his apples once picked. No bumps – no bruising. No bruising en route to the collection point or to the warehouse means less spoilage and waste. Further on up the road, you can see a mum and her three children out on an evening bicycle ride. I saw a total of ten cyclists on the new asphalt in the space of half an hour. This would not have been a thing on the old road – stones, dust, mud, potholes. And I must say, walking on smooth asphalt is easier than walking on an irregular surface of stones and earth. If more folk can be encouraged out for some evening exercise, it's another win for the asphalt. 


Below: the western end of the road, ulica Spokojna in Chynów, out of the forest and into the orchards. A distant tractor is driving over the previously existing asphalt that had been laid back in 2015. Now the road is complete, local people can get to the shops more comfortably, by car – or bicycle.


Meanwhile, the really big roadworks are going on to the north of Warka; ulica Gośniewicka is undergoing a much-needed remont. Its surface had been badly potholed and crumbling due to the weight of heavy goods vehicles making deliveries to the Warka brewery or taking fruit from the chilled warehouses along the road. Work started in February and is likely to finish in November. In the meantime, traffic going this way has to face three lots of contraflow lanes with traffic lights that take four minutes to change. Until this work is complete, I take an alternative route through Gośniewice and Prusy.

* Whilst the asphalt is ready, the road is technically closed, with no-entry signs at either end. Dumper trucks are still taking away spoil from the field where it has been stored, and there are no markings (white lines, road signs, etc). Locals know about this, and so have started using this route.

This time four years ago:
Samsung Galaxy phone camera vs. Nikon D3500

This time seven years ago:
Karczunkowska viaduct takes shape

This time eight years ago:
My father's return to Warsaw, 2017

This time nine years ago:
My father's first visit to Warsaw in 40 years

This time ten years ago:
What's worse – unemployment, or a badly-paid job?

This time 11 years ago:
A return to Liverpool

This time 13 years ago:
Too good to last (anyone remember OLT Express airline?)

This time 14 years ago:
Poland's Baltic coast as a holiday destination

This time 16 years ago:
The Warsaw they fought and died for?

This time 18 years ago:
Floods, rainbows and hope

Monday, 28 July 2025

A local murder and church-state relations

Saturday morning and I'm scrolling through my Facebook feed. The local volunteer fire brigade (OSP Chynów) posted an intriguing story late on Friday about a curious and macabre incident that occurred the previous evening in Lasopole, less than two and half miles away.

The fire brigade had been called out to deal with a burning person on the road at 22:20 on Thursday 24 July in Lasopole. The fire engine from Chynów was joined by two more from Drwalew and another from Grójec. The emergency medical services, the police and the prosecutor's office were also on hand, but were unable to save the victim. whose body had 80% burns and several wounds to the head. [Photos from the fire brigade]. 

On Monday morning, I'm getting social-media alerts from friends about this incident – this is evidently  quite an extraordinary story.

It transpires that this was a murder. The perpetrator (who has since admitted to the killing) was a 60-year-old parish priest, who'd axed a 68-year-old homeless man in the skull before pouring petrol on him and setting him on fire. A local cyclist saw this from afar and managed to remember the registration number of an 'expensive terrain vehicle' that he saw driving away from the scene with its lights off. He reported it to the police who quickly tracked it down to the parish priest in Przypki, a village some 20km to the north-east of Lasopole. Because the priest possessed firearms as a huntsman, anti-terrorist police had to be deployed in the arrest. He has been arrested and charged with zabójstwo ze szczególnym okrucieństwem, 'murder with particular cruelty'.

Below: the crime scene. Note the stains on the asphalt and the votive candle on the roadside. Chilling. A thunderstorm is forecast for this evening; traces of this brutal event will likely be erased.

So – now the case is with the prosecutor's office. Initial investigations point to some real estate being involved, an apartment in Warsaw. Lots of ins lots of outs lots of what have yous. The story will no doubt run and run in the Polish media, and is certainly one to follow. If the priest ends up with a sentence that's considered too lenient, anticlerical sentiment may receive a boost. If details emerge of hidden wealth, shady real-estate deals etc, it will also not help the church's image in Poland either.

In the meanwhile, the case has gone viral. I get the following meme from Jacek L in London this morning. "The parish priest is already close, is knocking at my door..." Armed with an axe and petrol canister. [The text is from the controversial song 1992 by Paweł Kukiz and Piersi.]

Finally a reminder that 35 years have passed since the murder of Fr Tadeusz Stokowski and his housekeeper Marzanna Kubiak in nearby Michalczew. The murder remains unsolved.

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A new cider season is underway

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Saturday, 26 July 2025

Peak Kitten

Is there a time when kittens can get no cuter? Let me introduce the gang at six weeks... from the left, Celeste, with her long hair, then (back row) Pacyfik, then (front row) Arcturus, then in the foreground Scrapper, and to the right, Czestuś the ginger tom.

Their personalities are developing nicely. Scrapper's is the best defined (najbardziej wyrazisty) – wherever there's a fight going on, Scrapper is involved. Pugnacious, and, as you can see, a curious kitten. Czestuś is a bit of a mummy's boy, laid back and interested in taking naps. He is friendly and looks at me a lot, often giving me slow blinks. Celeste is the explorer, out in front when it comes to pushing the geographical frontiers. The first kitten out of the birthing box, out of my bedroom, and in the last week, first out of the house and into the garden. She has long hair (a recessive gene), and like all of her siblings except Czestuś, has a short kinked tail (another recessive gene). Pacyfik ('Pacific') is so called because he was the only kitten not to squeak loudly in protest when lifted out of the birthing box to be weighed. And his near-twin, Arcturus, who has the most white in colouration, which is the only way that I can distinguish him from Pacyfik.

Wenusia continues to be the dutiful mother. Now they are starting to venture outside into my garden, she monitors them, aware of each one's position and momentum. Wenusia is skin and bone despite eating the best part of two large tins of cat food a day (plus dry cat food, plus milk plus Greek-style yogurt. And mice – Wenusia brought home two freshly killed mice and proceeded to eat them on the kitchen floor, leaving not a trace). This month I've spent almost as much on feeding Wenusia as I have on feeding myself! She is still feeding her young several times a day, so she absolutely deserves it. Not only feeding, but also grooming them, licking their fur. She loves them all.


Below: Arcturus and Pacyfik. Or is it Pacyfik and Arcturus? Arcturus has a white belly and a broader white stripe on his back.


Below: Czestuś doing what he does best – sleeping, contentedly.


Their favourite toy at the moment is the white ball that comes in a tin of Guinness Draught Flow stout. It contains the nitrogen dioxide that gives the beer a smooth, creamy head; the ball is firm and has a rim all round it, giving it a slight unpredictability to its motion. An excellent kitten toy – hours of fun – that comes with free beer (8.99 zł for 440ml). As I write, Scrapper and Arcturus are fighting, Czestuś and Celeste are drinking mummy's milk and Pacyfik is chasing the ball.

This time last year:
Specialists, generalists and rabbit holes

This time two years ago:
The US House Committee on Oversight and Accountability hearing on Unidentified Anomalous Phenomena: Implications on National Security, Public Safety and Government Transparency. 

This time three years ago:
Gloucestershire, 1830 and Ohio, 1946: automatic writing

This time four years ago:
New phone, new laptop, Part II

This time five years ago:
Two images from my early childhood

This time six years ago:
How PKP PLK's planners should treat pedestrian station users.

This time seven years ago:
Foreign exchange: don't get diddled!
[for the saps who pay £250 for €200 at the airport]

This time nine years ago:
Defining my Sublime Aesthetic

This time 11 years ago:
Porth Ceiriad on the Llyn Peninsula

This time 13 years ago:
Jeziorki sunset, late July

This time 14 years ago:
Jeziorki sunset, after the storm

This time 17 years ago:
Rural suburbias - the ideal place to live?

Thursday, 24 July 2025

On brand

After six years' of hard use, it is time to replace my footwear of choice. My 2019 Loake Pimlicos are hereby replaced with brand-new pairs of the same. The difference between the old and the new is the result of entropy, time's arrow. Since June 2019, I have walked over 25 million paces, of which the majority was while wearing this wonderfully solid and comfortable pair of boots (the old one below).  I have worked out that I have easily covered 12,000 miles in them. They have been through mud and rain and dust (though not snow – I have a pair of Ukrainian army boots for the harshest winter conditions), and I confess to not looking after them all that well. I guess that with the application of dubbin, drying them out by stuffing them with old newspapers, and – above all, sending them back to the factory for a re-heel, I could have extended their life even more.

If something is good – stick with it. Two weeks ago, I popped into the Loake showroom on ulica Chmielna (it opened ten years ago) and ordered myself two pairs of Pimlico boots. Two weeks later I receive a phone call that they have arrived. I pop into town to pick them up. 

All being well (healthwise, geopolitics-wise), these two pairs, worn in rotation, should last me until I am into my 80s, by which time they will look like the old ones. Although I must say, comparing the photo of the old ones when new, I can see that the new ones are slightly more pointy in the toe. 

Below: whilst not into consumerism, I do love the Loake customer experience. Each shoe comes in its own bag, the bagged shoes come in a box, the box comes in a bag, all branded. (Also in the box, a tin of dubbin, a grease that's not there to polish the shoes but to restore the leather after they've been out in the wet.) I'm happy to pay for such a quality experience. Above all, I'm happy to support a family business – a fifth-generation family business – one's that's blithely unconcerned with greedy shareholders bitching about the next quarter's earnings, but one that remains focused on long-term sustainability. If you can avoid buying stuff from corporates, do so.

I have been loyal to the Loake brand for 45 years; in 2030, the company will be celebrating its 150th birthday, by which time I will have been a customer for a third of its history! Below: my 2010 line-up of Loake shoes.


Buying cheap shit that lasts a season before being consigned to landfill is bad for the planet and bad for society. It enriches the richest. Support sustainable businesses instead. So, you may well ask; what of the old pair? The end up in my old boot museum... Art to enliven a corner of my living room. Below my old Pimlicos, and below them, a pair of even older Loake Kalaharis. 

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The importance of Israel Poznański

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Adventures in speech recognition

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A Short Pilgrimage to Bid Farewell to the Day

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