Ultimately, I am lazy. But so what?

My material needs are met; I have no material wants exceeding my needs. It would be nice to have a bit more cash in the bank, but only for an increased sense of security rather than because I have any desire to buy something expensive that I don't currently own. 

This is one of the great luxuries of getting older: discovering that there is little to covet.

People who know me also know that I'm not much of a reaching-out kinda guy. If someone contacts me and suggests meeting up, I'm usually delighted by the invitation and rarely say no. But I'm seldom the one who takes the first step. You may attribute this to laziness. Yet I live, as my primary-school teachers used to say, in my own little world. And I like it here. It is generally a little world of joy (especially when the sun shines upon it, as it's doing right now).

I don't have a constant need for human company. Solitude is a luxury. Human company is rather like spice in food: it brings things alive, introduces something unexpected, but too much of it can overwhelm everything else. One or two social outings a week, online chats with family and friends, conversations with neighbours encountered on my walks – that's quite enough for me.

I'm happy with my own thoughts, but that doesn't mean I don't value other people's! Quite the opposite. An hour or two of intelligent conversation can provide material for several days' subsequent thinking. Someone throws out an idea, an observation, an unexpected connection, a brilliant insight and off it goes to be further pondered over. New ideas gratefully received. Original thought is a deficit item in our modern world.

Much of what another person might consider as my laziness is actually the consequence of having thought through what would happen if I simply didn't do something. Why have I never been on an exotic holiday or cruise or trekked distant lands? Because I neither need to nor want to. Why don't I drive a big, expensive car? Because of entropy; it would be expensive to insure and maintain, I would worry about it getting scratched and dented. Why don't I mow my lawn? Because every blade of grass on my land is a tiny oxygen factory, and during the growing season I let nature maximise leaf cover. I keep paths clear. Bushes get trimmed, branches lopped and hedges shaped in late winter, before the sap begins to rise. The rest can get on with being vegetation.

There's a useful distinction between laziness and refusal. Laziness is failing to make an effort towards something you value. Refusal is deciding that the objective itself isn't worth the effort of pursuing it.

Modern life tends to confuse the two. We're surrounded by injunctions to optimise ourselves: travel more, earn more, network more, exercise more, renovate more, consume more, experience more. Anyway, endless growth is bringing on climate change. We live in a hierarchical society in which many seek external validation; their focus is on their place in the pecking order. Failure to pursue commonly coveted material goals can be confused for lack of ambition. 

There is nothing inherently virtuous about expending energy. The question is what the energy is for.

Duty answers that question efficiently. When have children to feed, clothe and educate, and a mortgage to pay off, you work. When lucrative work appears, you take it. You pull in the cash because there are large bills waiting to swallow it. Duty staves off laziness because duty removes choice.

Now I can take things somewhat easier. There are still twelve cats to feed and four litter trays to keep clean. And domestic entropy continues its tireless work.

But there's another kind of not-doing which I find harder to justify. I continually have that nagging sense that I should be reading more, writing more, producing more – sharing insights, creating, devising, inventing. There are books sitting unread, ideas sitting unwritten, and half-formed thoughts that ought to be followed through to a conclusion. And I'm not doing enough of it. My notebooks should be filling up much faster than they are.

And this raises tougher question – is this genuinely laziness? Is this an ethical issue (not working sufficiently hard at fulfilling my potential as a human being)? I think so.

But perhaps it's diminishing energy, an age-related thing. Perhaps I have never possessed quite as much drive as I imagine I ought to have possessed. Looking back, were my energy levels ever sufficient to achieve, excel, push relentlessly forward? I should have had a handful of books published by now. Or did duty disguise the limits of my natural drive? Surely my creative peak has already passed? A hard thing to admit to myself.

There is a crucial difference between not wanting something that other people tell you ought to want and failing to pursue something that you yourself believe worthwhile.

I genuinely don't want the large car, the exotic holiday or a manic social whirl. Nothing sacrificed there. But if I genuinely want to read the book, write the essay, develop the idea – and nevertheless don't – then the accusation of laziness becomes harder to evade.

And yet even here there is another question: ultimately, how much should I care?

I am who I am. I arrived in the world with certain talents and without others, with a particular temperament and a particular allocation of energy. None of us chooses the hand we are dealt.

This is where the modern cult of agency becomes slightly absurd (an interesting article in The Economist this week about 'internal locus of control'). We are constantly told that we must shape our own destiny rather than allow circumstances or other people (or God!) to shape it for us. There's some truth in that. But balance is called for. At one extreme lies fatalism: qué será, será, or inshallah. Why bother? Everything has been preordained, determined by the stars above. At the other extreme: the fantasy of total personal agency – you, and you alone, are responsible for how your life ends up unfolding. Work hard enough, want hard enough, organise yourself efficiently enough, see your projects through to the end, and the universe eventually submits to your will.

Neither approach to life is right. Chance matters; birth matters; temperament, health, your family, friends and colleagues, history, geography, and yes, good fortune all matter. But choice matters too. Agency is not about choosing the hand but how to play with what you have. 

And perhaps contentment itself requires a similar balance. It is hugely liberating when you get to the point in life when you realise that you have enough. But there is also a danger that contentment becomes a philosophical name for inertia.

So I find myself somewhere between the two. I don't strive for more things or more travel. I don't particularly feel a need for more social activity. I don't particularly want a busier life. or more things.. 

But I do want more from my mind, and for my soul.

And that is worth striving for.

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Many Machcins

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The Long Dark Half-Hour of the Consumerist Soul

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Early-September travel news

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Fields filling up with houses

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Battle of Britain: Poland's contribution

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Sewer under ul. Karczunkowska

Back to back troubles

My painful back twinges had almost subsided after three weeks without any exercises. So yesterday, I thought, 'new month, new resolve', a good time to return gently into exercising. A minute of holding the plank (rather than the usual ten); ten sit-ups and ten squats rather than the usual sixty of both. Two lots of back extension rather than eight or ten. Half the usual number of bird-dog extensions. So – taking it easy to get back into it.

But waking up in the middle of the night, those twinges returned. I can lie down, sit, stand or walk without pain, but moving from one position to another can result in a sharp spasm of pain. I wince; I curse.

This is worrying. Night is a bad time to worry – would it get worse and worse? Have I passed a threshold after which return to regular exercise is impossible? 

About 27 years ago, I took a statutory medical examination ahead of taking on a new job here in Poland. My spine was X-rayed and the doctor told me my backbones were fusing together. She said that my spine would become immobile in old age. “Exercise and sanatoria” – the only things that could save me, she said. For the next 15 years or so, no symptoms. Then, one morning in June 2015, after a day walking around London, I woke up to feel numbness in the big toe on my left foot. In Warsaw, I called the clinic and was subjected to a barrage of tests to see, for example, whether a tumour wasn't pressing on a nerve somewhere. It wasn't – an X-ray revealed that it was indeed those bones in the spinal cord growing where they shouldn't be growing. Again, exercise was prescribed. Which I have been doing ever since, with a focus on maintaining core muscle strength and flexibility in my spine.

Earlier this year, I twanged my back doing something (I know not what!); several days laying off the exercise and I was back to normal. And again in early August, the same – but this time, the break from exercise did not solve the problem.

I worry about ankylosing spondylitis – did my father have this in old age? He was severely bent over in his nineties... This photo (he was 92 at the time) shows his characteristic posture. He could straighten up with effort, though he'd slump back to this default position. In his last years, he would take his afternoon nap lying flat on his back on the hard wooden floor, no pillow.

My great fear for old age is immobility; my daily walks are a source of joy and inspiration, especially on sunny days, at dawn, at dusk, any time of year. Losing the ability to keep on walking would be a terrible blow.

But sitting still, there's no pain, I'm not thinking about my back. Until a sudden sound below and to my left – it's Memfis ('Fisia') playing with a ball on the kitchen floor. I turn – and a sharp spasm (nothing too painful) shoots across from my lower back.

Time, I feel, to arrange a visit at the doctor's surgery to have all this checked out. I don't fancy a whole lot more new medications to go alongside the ones for my heart, but would be keen to learn about specific exercise protocols that might do the trick. After all, I still have more than eleven thousand days before my 100th birthday!

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Fields filling up with houses

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Things can only get better

Falling trees

Finding newly fallen trees in the forest next door after a storm or strong wind is a common occurrence.  Some have snapped, others have toppled over, lifting plates of roots and earth out of the ground. Birch trunks lie bleaching among the leaf litter, while elsewhere dead trees remain propped against living ones at crazy angles. 

After the most recent winds, I find my familiar paths blocked. New paths need to be threaded through the debris. Birch, pine, oak and – identified by AI – hornbeam (grab in Polish). According to my neighbour to the north, this land has not been farmed for over 50 years and just left to grow wild. Over time, the woodland has been in the process of gradually changing its composition as successive generations of trees grow, mature and die.

Birch is a pioneer species; it is one of the first trees to move in. It grows quickly, tolerates poor soil and produces vast quantities of seed. But it is not particularly long-lived. As a young forest closes over and becomes darker, the birches which colonised the site decades earlier begin to die, like the one below, while slower-growing, more shade-tolerant trees continue developing beneath them.

What is striking about this forest is the quantity of dead timber that has simply been left where it fell. In a park or garden, a fallen tree is regarded as something that needs removing. Here, it is part of the system. A dead trunk becomes habitat for fungi, beetles and other insects, that provide food for woodpeckers and other birds. Gradually the timber softens, rots, collapses and is incorporated back into the forest floor, returning nutrients to the soil from which the next generation of trees will.

Trees that have been uprooted rather than snapped suggest that their root systems are shallow. Instead of one great root plunging vertically downwards, much of the anchorage lies relatively close to the surface. Under sufficiently strong winds the entire root plate can rotate out of the ground. As extreme weather events become more frequent, trees will adapt and new ones will sink deeper roots.

Meanwhile, toppled trees make for easier climbing for the cats. Scrapper, below, on his way down.

Once one large tree has fallen, those behind it become more exposed to the wind. Forest trees protect one another. Remove one and the aerodynamic conditions change for its neighbours. The prevailing winds are from the north-west; so far not one has fallen westwards over my fence since it was erected to mark the eastern border of my działka. There is, however, always a first time.

It's not just whole trees that tumble. Branches snap off in the wind too and scatter on the forest floor. Birches and aspens are most prone to losing bits.

Standing among these fallen trunks, it is easy to think in terms of the deaths of individual trees: this one has died, that one has blown down, another is beginning to rot. But from the forest's point of view, the individual tree is almost incidental, the forest continues, new saplings will emerge from the forest floor and push up towards the canopy.

Left: bonus shot – last Friday's full moon, taken just around the corner from the next-door forest, where it opens out onto orchards. Shot on my Samsung Galaxy A20, f/1.8 at 0.8 sec exposure, 4,500 ASA.

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Late August photo round-up

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"Sod the locals" 

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If you're really concerned about global warming...

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Gold Train update (the hope! the expectations!)

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Poland's most beautiful street

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Summer Sunday in the city

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Last bike-ride to work of the summer

Nihil a terra, solum ex arboribus

This is the motto for this year's vintage cider from my działka. I will not be using fallen apples, only those plucked off the tree. “Nothing from the ground, only from the tree.” Today I completed my first demijohn of cider, which will be joined by many more in the next week or so. Because of biennial bearing (apple trees come into fruit every other year if not sprayed and pruned), this will only be my third vintage of cider production here in Jakubowizna (or Jabłkowizna as it is at this time of year). 

The learning process is ongoing; new lessons learned with each successive vintage, augmented this year by tip from ChatGPT and Google Gemini. I learn from both that cider from my apple variety, Antonówka generally lacks tannins, and so adding some crab apples into the mix helps with flavour. I will make a batch to see if that works.

The apples are fully ripe. Many have already fallen to the ground – and there they will stay. Two years ago, I learned the difference between apples lying on the ground and the ones picked off the tree, and my 2024 vintage was a mixture of the two. The former have higher sugar content but are softer in consistency, and there is far more sediment, The latter are crisper, more tart, and produce less sludge, requiring less filtration.

Filtration has hitherto been the choke point in my cider-making. Removing the thick mousse (which, if eaten straight away, on its own or with Greek-style natural yogurt is delicious) takes more time than pretty much all other parts of the production process taken together.

By ignoring fallen apples and using only ones plucked from the tree, things are vastly speeded up. However, less sugar will mean a lower alcohol content, so I shall find how that affects taste. I want tart, I don't want sour.

Below: the first demijohn. The apple juice is still cloudy; the sediment settles; in a couple of days, the fermentation will begin, and carbon dioxide will start to bubble up through the water-trap pipe, which keeps oxygen from turning the juice into vinegar.

The cider will ferment in the demijohns until the autumn, and bottling will begin in early December. The bottles are recycled, having been used in 2022 and 2024; a new batch of bottle-tops will need to be bought.

This time last year:
Fading and resurging Chynów in monochrome and in colour

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Imminent? I don't think so

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Dawn tourism – the sights without the crowds

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Bike ride to the past

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Muscle memory

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The journey there, and the journey back again

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Food hygiene and lies as Russian foreign policy tools

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Asphalt for ul. Poloneza (to Krasnowolska at least)

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A welcome splash of colour to a drab car park 

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To Hel and back in 36 hours

This time 16 years ago:
Honing the Art of the Written Word

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Of castles, dams and brass bands

The kittens at three months

Halfway through kittenhood, a quarter of the way to full feline adulthood. All is going well, rites of passage being observed by some but not all – Kwintesencja ('Kwincia') and Memphis ('Fisia') have already spent their first night outdoors after failing to come home by lights out, and Kwincia recently sported a wound on the left side of her neck, probably the result of fighting with one of her siblings. Or maybe uncles. Or maybe some external attacker. In any case, it has completely healed.

Below, from left: Wiktor, taking it easy, Kwincia and Mars, both alert, watching the breakfast bowls.

Dorian, with his cerebellar hypoplasia, is not growing as quickly as the others; he is a fussy eater. Whatever wet cat-food I leave out, he will scrape the ground with his paw next to the bowl, a sign that he treats the food on a par with faecal matter. He loves Greek-style yogurt, milk and dry cat-food (especially the premium fish-flavoured sort). Yesterday, I bought some freeze-dry chicken fillet strips (Céleste's favourite treat); I am feeding small portions of this to Dorian away from the others, allowing him to catch up weight-wise. 

Below: first foray into the forest next door for Wiktor and Mars.

Mars is a great little lad, full of energy and with a hearty appetite, though unlike Kwincia, his identical-twin sister, he has a short stumpy tail. If you look at the two of them closely side-by-side, you will notice that Kwincia has a more feminine face. Wiktor shows very mild signs of cerebellar hypoplasia, though with a regular tail he has much better balance than Dorian. Unlike stumpy-tailed Dorian, whose rear legs are splayed outward, Wiktor walks normally, although his head nods very slightly while at rest. And then there's Memphis, 'Fisia',  tabby with a white underside and a white 'tear streak' on the left side of her face. Below: all five together, licking the aluminium lid of a 1kg yogurt pot. Clockwise from bottom: Mars, Dorian, Wiktor, Kwincia and Fisia.

The kittens are spending more and more time outdoors and are discovering the extent of their range. They move as a group, with Dorian in among them (I do worry that one day he might get lost and be unable to find his way home on his own). I must remember not to take anything for granted and to be grateful for the joy that the kittens bring, as well as other items... dead birds and live mice (though the mice end up tortured to death and eaten whole). Below: Wiktor and the remains of a young starling.

Céleste is still managing to breastfeed her little ones almost four weeks after being sterilised! No longer all at the same time, and no longer for more than a few minutes. Like her mother, Wenusia, she has proved herself an ideal mother. Her fur is starting to grow back; I hope she will have regained her beauty by the time of the first snows. However, unlike Wenus, who toilet-trained her brood with military discipline, Céleste has proved remiss in this department. I continue to find kitten poo where it shouldn't be – on the floor beside the litter tray, on the floor nowhere near the litter tray, or in a cat-basket that hitherto had been the exclusive snoozing spot of one of the kittens' uncles. The floors, being tiled, are easy to clean. The cat-baskets are not. And tooth-marks on electrical cables worry me... grown-up cats don't do this.

Below: Wiktor and Mars in the kitten play-house I built several weeks ago out of old boxes.

Wenusia herself, grandmother and materfamilias, makes an appearance for breakfast, stays a short while then departs, popping in once or twice during the day for a meal. But most of the time, she remains outside. My neighbours (summer weekends only) often report that Wenus pops round there for ham and milk. 

The uncles, Czester, Scrapper, Pacyfik and Arcturus, spend most nights roaming the great outdoors; within two minutes of me pulling up the roller-blinds, there's a commotion on the windowsill and a breakfast queue has formed of the above-mentioned toms, plus their mum, plus ol' Mr. Heaps (Hipek), the elderly castrated male who's been with us now for over four months. 

Left: typical brunch buffet scene. All five kittens present, along with Czester the beloved ginger tom, Hipek, white with black patches and tail, and at the bottom of the picture, Arcturus (whom I've left uncastrated). Arcturus remains an even-tempered and undemanding fellow, who gets on with everyone.

The kittens never knew the house without Hipek, so accept him totally. Now Hipek is a good, calm, emotionally stable old cat. He gets on with everyone, and everyone gets on with him – except Pacyfik. For some reason, Pacio will hiss and growl and swipe at Hipek, often necessitating the younger cat's removal from the house. Pacio has learnt to tolerate the kittens (he'd hiss and growl at them too at first), but with Hipek relations remain bad. It makes me wonder whether intolerance of the outsider/newcomer is a genetic thing. One in five mammals is born a racist? Why does Scrapper often snooze beside Hipek and run together with him in the garden while Pacyfik gives Hipek a hard time? Cats from the same litter, same upbringing... different genes.

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Strange twilight

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Ageing and the Ego

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First inklings of the end of summer

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Nikon's new mirrorless cameras - too big and heavy for me

This time 12 years ago:
Short, sharp diet proves I'm allergy-free

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More photos from Radom Air Show

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Twilight on ul. Karczunkowska 

This time 17 years ago:
First hints of autumn in the air

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Slovakia – we were not impressed

This time 19 years ago:
Jeziorki – late August cultivation

The Big Red Train Ride by Eric Newby

My appetite whetted by Paul Theroux, I knew the next book I'd have to reach for would be The Big Red Train Ride, Eric Newby's account of a Moscow-Nakhodka journey on the Trans-Siberian Express. Why, it even name-checks Theroux on the front cover, with this quote from him under the title – “The best kind of travel book... it awakened frosty demons in me, and memories I had thought forgotten”.

Theroux travelled from east to west from Nakhodka to Moscow on the penultimate leg of his London-Tokyo-London train journey, whilst Newby focused on the Trans-Siberian alone, travelling west to east. Theroux's journey was in December 1973; Newby's in May 1977. The Soviet Union was not yet obviously on its last legs. Indeed, in geopolitical terms it was approaching the height of its power. Yet the symptoms of what would later be called the Era of Stagnation are obvious in both books – shortages, shabbiness, endemic drunkenness, petty authoritarianism and the immense gulf between official rhetoric and everyday reality.

The sheer size of Russia comes across in the distances between stations. Take Krasnoyarsk and Irkutsk. One would think, you know, two neighbouring Siberian cities somewhere along the line. Yet they lie 1,088 km apart; Przemyśl by the Polish-Ukrainian border and Świnoujście on the Baltic border with Germany – diagonal opposite corners of Poland – are a mere 994 km apart by rail. Lake Baikal is 636km in length – further than the distance between Kołobrzeg and Rzeszów in a straight line. And even today, this is not a fast train, no Shinkansen or TGV. It's a week however you do it. It is worth watching a YouTube video of the Trans-Siberian Express from recent years; it retains its flagship status (the train is still called the Rossiya) but it resembles modern Polish trains inside, and the stations have had a makeover. However, Google Street View shows that away from the clean station buildings, Siberia's roads are potholed, people buy vegetables from grubby kiosks and live in wooden huts with outside toilets. [Incidentally, this post from 2019 is based on my road atlas of the USSR from the late 1980s.]

In Soviet times, Vladivostok was a closed city, so Western travellers entering or leaving the country for Japan would do so through the port of Nakhodka; this required changing trains at Khabarovsk. Today, travelling in Russia as a Westerner one runs the risk of being imprisoned on some fatuous charge and becoming a bargaining chip for Putin. This journey itself is not on my bucket list. Indeed, I don't even have a bucket list. If I want to see trees whizzing past a train window I can go from Warka on the Radom line down to Kruszyna for about 20 km of this, short enough not to get boring.

Although the two books cover much the same geographical and historical ground, they do so in completely different ways. Eric Newby offers more objective insights, whilst Theroux's book is more subjective. About the Trans-Siberian Express, the railway itself, its place in Russian and Soviet history and culture, I have learned vastly more from The Big Red Train Ride. If Theroux is an impressionist with a broad brush, Newby is very much the details man. Theroux's primarily interest is the people he encounters on trains; Newby is interested in the people, the train, the track, the stations, the landscape beyond the window and the history buried underneath it.

I read the book accompanied by three sources: Атлас железных дорог СССР (Railway Atlas of the USSR, 1988, which I bought in Stanford's brilliant map shop on Long Acre in London in the early '90s), Google Maps Street View, and a YouTube video, 164 Hours on the World's Longest Railway Journey. Eric Newby details his journey, mentioning many of the larger stations along the way; I would find them in the atlas, then jump in to Street View to see how they look today. 

Eric Newby (1919-2006) had a fascinating war record. He fought with the Black Watch regiment in North Africa, then joined the fledgling Special Boat Section, and was captured by the Italians during a raid on Sicily in 1942. He escaped from a PoW camp in northern Italy and was assisted in avoiding recapture by Wanda Škof, a young Slovene woman, whom he married after the war, and who accompanied him on many of his travels.

Their journey across the Soviet Union on the Trans-Siberian Express reminded me of our Polish parish youth trips to communist Poland at the same time; everything was invigilated by the Party, its people were with us, watching us, we had to visit aluminium foundries and car factories, we had to sit through propaganda films. And so it was with Newby, his wife, and Otto the photographer who snapped the journey; Misha, “the man from the Agency” was with them all the while, telling them what they couldn't photograph (most things of interest) and lining up meetings with chairmen of collective farms and boring visits to cable factories.

Below: taken from a Soviet railway atlas from 1943, the page showing the end of the Trans-Siberian Railway, with Vladivostok and Nakhodka visible. To view full size, right-click on the image to open it in a new tab, then click on it in the new tab and use the 'enlarge' tool.

This time last year:
Early onset of Autumn?

This time two years ago:
Cider-making lessons as the season moves on

This time three years ago:
Getting to Sandomierz by bus and train

This time four years ago:
Inspiration

This time 12 years ago:
Food shopping and dietary update

This time 13 years ago:
Photos from the Radom Air Show, part 1

This time 14 years ago:
Offloading PKP's risk at W-wa Jeziorki

This time 16 years ago:
Time to be stuffing yourself with fresh fruit

This time 17 years ago:
First notes of autumn in the air

This time 19 years ago:
Large spider catches fly

Morning ramble through anemoia

The forecast promised clear skies from sunrise until around 10 am, after which time clouds will start streaming in from the west. So last night I went to bed early. This morning I woke up at half past five, fed the cats, ate breakfast and set off before seven. First port of call would be the abandoned plum orchards of Machcin II, to top up my breakfast. The ground was still soaked with dew when I arrived, an Eden-like atmosphere, the sun streaming in  through the trees. Having eaten my fill of ripe plums and prune-plums (węgierki) off the trees, I carried on towards Grobice.

Wave after wave of exomnesia moments; a sense of longing for a time and places from before my birth that are so familiar to me, yet in this life I have experienced them not.
 

The bittersweet tang of losing something intangible yet beautiful, that I have felt since childhood. Something close, personal, familiar, integral with my identity – yet I can't grasp it.

For a moment, the sight of a new pavement being built alongside ulica Zamkowa in Grobice takes my mind off anomalous reminiscences. This infrastructural investment is much needed, good to see work in progress.

Below: but then the sight of this rural suburbia whisks me right off again...

Across the DK50 approaching Sułkowice. That klimat is there; intense.

As the morning ticks away, the sky starts filling with clouds. Below: looking towards the railway line in Sułkowice, and beyond it, the police dog-training school.

Back to Chynów and Jakubowizna by following the railway line. That atmosphere remains with me. Drifting in and out of a hypnagogic dreamworld in which details like time and geography lose all relevance.

Below: from the same spot, looking the other way, the day before yesterday, just after sunset.

This time five years ago:
Age and Ego: Part I

This time six years ago:
Getting There

This time seven years ago:
Best and worst railway journeys in one day

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What's new around Jeziorki

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Hydrology - droughts, floods and sandbanks

This time 13 years ago:
Radom air show - Part 1

This time 14 years ago:
Restricting passenger movement and safety

This time 15 years ago:
Seasonal fruit - eat it in bulk, while you can!

This time 17 years ago:
Russia-Polish 'unification', 1939-style

Sir Christopher Nolan's adaptation of The Odyssey and the Bronze Age collapse

Like his previous film Oppenheimer (2023) Nolan's adaptation of the Odyssey has been a film impossible to ignore or overlook this summer; many podcasters and YouTubers I follow have made references or indeed entire podcasts about it.

The story is known to many from childhood – the Cyclops, Circe turning men into swine, the Sirens' song, Scylla and Charybdis, Calypso's isle, the Trojan Horse, the return to his wife Penelope at Ithaca.

What interested me in particular was the frequent references throughout the film to 'the peoples of the sea', and a reference to the characters 'living in the Age of Bronze'. Nolan is explicitly connecting the Late Bronze Age collapse with the mysterious Sea Peoples, something that Homer does not do.

The Iliad and the Odyssey are epics attributed to Homer, who lived in the 8th century BC. The Iliad is set during the Trojan War, while the Odyssey deals with its aftermath and Odysseus's ten-year journey home. The Trojan Horse and the sacking of Troy, which take place after the events of the Iliad, are recalled in the Odyssey. The historicity of the Trojan War is one for academics to argue about, but there is a consensus view that if there was such a conflict, it would have taken place in the late 12th century BC, around 400 years before Homer's time. So the Trojan War occurred during the Bronze Age collapse.

Why so many Mediterranean civilisations all collapsed within a couple of decades at the turn of the 12th century BC remains a mystery, the Sea Peoples being one explanation. Current thinking points towards a combination of factors – climate change and drought, crop failures and famine, political instability, disrupted trade networks, warfare, migration and internal revolt. The Sea Peoples may therefore have been as much a symptom of the Bronze Age collapse as its cause.

Nolan couples the Sea Peoples narrative onto the idea of 'breaking Zeus' law'. He takes the ancient Greek concept of xenia – a structured reciprocal institution that governed relations between host and stranger, and enlarges it.  A stranger arriving at one's house is to be received, fed and protected; in turn, the guest owes respect to the host and must not exploit their hospitality. Nolan expands the 'law of Zeus' into a more general Christian principle of reciprocity – treating others as you yourself would wish to be treated. 

The sacking of Troy is portrayed by Nolan as an act that contributes to the breakdown of what we'd now call the international rules-based order. Odysseus – his soldiers and indeed the Greek armies – have transgressed the laws of Zeus, and will pay dearly for doing so. Their hubris brings nemesis. He – his soldiers and indeed the Greek armies – have transgressed the laws of Zeus, for which they will pay dearly. 

What links The Odyssey with Oppenheimer? The Bomb and the Horse. A war-winning device that destroys the old order and unleashes a world of moral uncertainty. Odysseus's realisation that "we are the peoples of the sea" is a pivotal point in the film. The enemy is not some mysterious aquatic barbarians from beyond the known world – it's actually men like Odysseus himself. As trust breaks down between kingdoms, so do trade, diplomacy and the restraints governing warfare; collapse becomes self-reinforcing. The Bronze Age was doomed. Ancient Greece was about to enter its Dark Ages.

Ultimately, Odysseus has the gods – in particular Athena – on his side. Odysseus knows he will prevail, he will return to Ithaca and cleanse his palace of the egregiously behaving suitors. Has order triumphed over disorder? 

Nolan ends his Odyssey with Odysseus and Penelope sailing off to the west, with their son Telemachus taking up the throne of Ithaca. Quite unlike Homer's original, in which Odysseus remains on the throne. Nolan seems to be signaling the need for generational change to ensure continuity of civilisation.

Any adaptation of a classic work of literature inevitably views it through the anxieties of its own age. Nolan gives us an Odyssey for a time preoccupied with collapsing international norms, displaced peoples, the fragility of trade and civilisation, and the consequences of discovering that rules can be broken with impunity.

Homer's Odyssey can be viewed through the prism of Joseph Campbell's comparative mythology and Christopher Booker's The Seven Basic Plots as being a 2,800 year-old archetype of narrative structure. The Odyssey is simultaneously a Voyage and Return, Quest, monster story, family-reunion story, revenge drama, coming-of-age story and meditation on mortality. But Homer's essential point is that the journey is there is not to become someone new, but that one can become oneself again.

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